2008

I can say with absolute sureness that 2008 was the best year of my life so far.

My <3 Belongs to Brautigan

"A Correction"
Cats walk on little cat feet
and fogs walk on little fog feet,
Carl.

Grandfather Quotes of the Day

So who wants to hear about the dirty puppet show I went to?!?

(reading the label of a bottle of scotch)
Oh look, it says 'remember to drink a lot.' Oh wait no 'responsibly.'

Jolly Holiday

I had intensive dreams last night. I got kicked out of a camera store for starting a dance and singalong party to Can't Take My Eyes Off You when it played on the store radio, I tried to go to Israel but first had to dig out the entrance to Israel (because you know they put all those styrofoam blocks in front of it for security reasons) with the guards all standing guard pointing their guns at me, I went into a store to try to cheer up the storeclerk after there was a murder in there but the storeclerk ended up acting crazy and frightening me away, and I encountered a whole assortment of people from my life both past and present.

This has been a very successful winter break so far. Southold is kind of depressing these days, not like the Christmasses of yore, but the gang has retained its classic sense of humor which is keeping Regiftmas* enjoyable. And sustainable!

*All presents this year come from basements, storage closets, etc. That way Christmas doesn't cost (much) money and does not generate (much) waste. And is easier than last year's make all the presents Christmas.

You folks may have white Christmasses back in the good old bay state, but over here on this Island paradise we have green grass and blue seas. I thought perhaps what with the entire country being covered with snow these days we might finally have a white Christmas in Southold. I thought wrong.

RICHARD BRAUTIGAN MEETS THE CARTER FAMILY???

"Wildwood Shadow"
He taught me to love him
and called me his flower

An old woman clutches a bagful of groceries
to her chest. A loaf of white bread sticks
out the top. She has forgotten to put her
food stamps away. They're still in her hand.





...HELLO WORLDS COLLIDING. Not that this poem especially resonates with me or anything. But I mean, two of my odd fixations in life coming together in one?

Oh jeez

I am not just on west coast time. I am on west coast insomniac time. Dangit.

SOOOOO today we spent some quality time at the state police barracks (OKAY DOES THIS NOT TOTALLY REMIND EVERYONE ELSE OF AGE OF EMPIRES?? JUST ME?? WELL FINE THEN) after getting into a liiiittle car accident.

Seeing that cement barrier come closer and closer and then slam up into it and then bounce into the other side....that. was crazy.

But in the words of my darling J
AT LEAST WE'RE ALL ALIVE
GOOD THING EVERYONE IS ALL ALIVE
THANK GOD WE'RE ALL ALIVE

The police officers did not take pictures with us EVEN AFTER THEY PROMISED US.

We are never civilized humans in our interactions with the law.

Love Song #1

Bej: I, I have no homosexual tendencies
Ale: Bej that’s what Ti said and he is a psychic
Bej: He did observe my behavior
Ale: I mean you and El together do have some like weird energy
Be: Bej if you need to come out to anyone I’m here
Bej: Be
Ale: Oh my god Be observes you too!
Bej: If you were in a block of ice like trapped and frozen and not dead I would get an ice pick and save you
Ale: That’s really romantic
Be: If you were trapped in lava I would cool that lava, burning lava, and then chip it away
Bej: That’s like an added level. Okay if you were in an ice cube at the bottom of the ocean, a big ice cube, big enough to fit your whole body,
Be: Okay
Bej: An ice block. I would save you by getting a submarine and dragging you up from the depths. I would be that guy.
Be: Bej, if you were trapped in a magma block in the center of the earth, I would get a pterodactyl and fly into a volcano and get you out
Bej: Wow thanks that means a lot. Be, if you were in a different dimension, like in a prison of demons who were holding you there, surrounded by like fire, interdimensional fire, which is different than regular fire, I would swim through that lake
Be: Of fire
Bej: Of fire, and fight the demon army, and then pick the lock on your cell door, and then time travel back to when you were kidnapped so that you wouldn’t even remember it happening
Be: Aw that’s sweet
Bej: I would do all that for you
Be: Bej, if you were captured by Arthas,
Bej: The Lich king?
Be: The Lich king
Bej: The Lich king himself
Be: The Lich king himself. I would level myself to level 140 – instantly. And I would fight him off [this gets too geeky and WOW inspired for me to understand here for a bit] And I would heal myself
Bej: No
Be: All at the same time in the name of Lich
Bej: Anna and Alex have no idea what you just said
Be: And then I would give you a level 120 character so we could walk around and rule the world of warcraft. Together.
Bej: Wow
Be: Like brothers. We’d rescue each other.
Bej: If you were walking in a field, a green field, green grassy field, and you fell down among a family of bunny rabbits, I would walk over to you and pet those bunny rabbits, and take your hand and walk out of the field, together.
Be: Bej, if you were in an egg in a triwizard cup
Bej: yeah
Be: I would fight that dragon and that basilisk
Bej: Would you use your broomstick? For me?
Be: I would say accio firebolt and I would come and get you because there would be two demons, two beasts so foul, defending you because you’re that precious
Bej: awww, man. If I was a vampire and you moved to Washington, like your smell would be irresistible to me but I wouldn’t kill you, I would just talk to you about how we should not be together, but stay together
Be: Camaraderie
Bej: Yeah
Be: Friendship
Bej: Friendship
Be: Brotherhood
Bej: Brotherhood
Be: Bej, I love you man.

Nine Things

It's night
and a numbered beauty
lapses at the wind,
chortles with the
branches of a tree,

giggles,

plays shadow dance
with a dead kite,
cajoles affection
from falling leaves,
and knows four
other things.
One is the color
of your hair.




OH MY GOD. I LOVE RICHARD BRAUTIGAN. SO. MUCH.

My favorite pterodactyl

Bliss is being like oh I guess I need to stand up and change into my pajamas and then realizing you're already in your pajamas.

GOD I wish I had a burrito right now. Or at least a quesodilla.


GOD. WOULD IT BE HUMANLY POSSIBLE TO LOVE MY LIFE MORE. I THINK NOT.

Man. I get on my airplane today. That is WEIRD.

The past two days. Now is the time I have to recap the past two days and I don't even know where to begin because GOODNESS stuff has gone DOWN.

I don't even KNOW how to express the love I have for my life. It's a little obscene.

GOD
I LOVE IT.

Puedo Fallar - Guadalupe Pineda

I love that I hang out with so many people who are good at playing the guitar and singing. It makes for greatness.

This is my LIFE. This is my first year at college. I am blessed.

Okay. The last few days. Oh boy.

So yesterday. I wake up and put my laundry in the washing machine. This is circa three. And then I go up at see Mel and Meg's room because they moved in together. And then we went into the woods. And then we found Co in the woods and she joined us. And the woods were a beautiful snowy narnia in the daylight.

And then we came back and Ka told us this joke from her laffy taffy wrapper that started what washes up on really small beaches, and then Ad was like WAIT don't tell us the answer, we should be able to figure it out since it has to be some small beach pun and we can think of it. So me and him were trying to figure it out, only we kept on saying we should look for puns and things to do with the beach that have words that mean small in them, but then when we guessed we were stuck on guessing small beach animals.

Me: SAND FLEAS??
Ad: BABY WHALES??
Me: SHRIMP??
Ad: SAND DOLLARS??
etc

The answer was microwaves. I feel as if we SHOULD have been able to guess it.

Then we went to dinner and there was tortellini in cream sauce with vegetables and it was delicious.

And then after dinner there was a classy dress up bat mitzvah in Ni's room. And that was fun. And then we were in Sa's room for a bit and then in Je and To's room. And Bej and Be and Je locked themselves in the bathroom and were making music. And then we were in Mel and Meg's room and Bej knows the hitting me song and we were also singing Guys and Dolls and it was great. And then Je and Bej scared me so much about bigfoot.

And then I went and got my laundry at 4 am and had to walk through the parking lot and was not attacked by bigfoot but was almost.

So today. Today I went to the mall with mah boyz cause they needed to do christmas shopping. And/or hanukkah.

And then when we got back we got dinner. And then after dinner we went to Li's apartmentmate Ja's 21st birthday party at their apartment. And THAT was great. And then we went into the woods. And then when we got back Je led us in meditation and it felt great. And Mel and Meg and Em and I had an amazing dance party. Oh wait no the meditation was after we were in Av's room, which is warmer than the woods for what we were doing. Again. But anyway. So um I guess then we went into Sa's room? Wait no a lot of us were in Mel and Meg's room, and Je was talking as if he was from California. That meditation was SO mycollege.

OH GOD. I FORGOT! When we came back from the woods the first time we went into Pi's room, and All and I melted into each other so that we were one person, and we were just feeling it for so long, so that we were just standing up holding each other saying oh my god oh my god oh my god we are one person oh my god oh my god. And it felt incredible. And then All was like wait...we just had girlsex. Because that's basically what it was.

Okay so then we went to Sa's room, and we recorded 20 minutes of our conversation intermingled with songs they were making up on the spot. Hopefully they will put the recording of that on the network. And then it was snowing and we noticed and opened the window and I put my hand out and dragged my fingers through the snow on the roof and looked up at the snow coming into my face and the snowy courtyard and the dorm across from us and it was incredible. And so many good things happened. Bej and Be wrote love song #2, which is Bej singing to Be about how he is his favorite pterodactyl and Be making pterodactyl noises that he turns into meows.

OH I forgot earlier Be kept on doing this thing where he wiggles his hand around like its a little baby dinosaur and has it dance or eat and then when I'm all focused on it he makes it attack and I get all startled.

And Je and I were doing this thing where we count to three and then quickly turn our faces at each other. And it's hilarious.

I love Mel's bed. From Mel's bed I can see everything.

And then the last thing we did was I walked outside with Be to the vending machine and it was the middle of the night, the for realisies middle, and it was snowing and there was fresh snow everywhere so we claimed the snow for us, because we were the first ones to encounter it. Tomorrow everyone will wake up to find more snowy wonderland, but Be and I knew first.

So we wrote a sign in the snow.
It says:

OUR SNOW. FACT.
-BE and [me]. FACT.

OH WAIT! Before that we were all dancing and singing old Maroon 5 and other songs in Ni's room with Ta and Pi and Em and Ma and other people. We knew they were in there because when we walked by their door we could hear their singing.

I hope I got everything in that recap.

LOVE. My life.

5 am

Me and Bej and Av are all facebook chatting, and it's funny cause we're living in bunk beds, Av below on the 2nd floor and then me on the third and then Bej on the fourth, and our beds are where they would be bunk beds if we didn't have floors and ceilings, and we're all awake at five am.

Just sayin.

Microwaves

So um
I will blog about today/tonight
tomorrow.

Bring us gifts of meat with gravy and mild kinds of cheese

So I'm getting dressed and I'm like, hm, why is the broom in my room? I wasn't sweeping recently. And then I remember how last night we (Mel, Bej, Be, Sa, me) were all pretending that we were going to try cocaine and it really wasn't a big deal, and Je was flipping out and being like GUYS. THAT IS A HARD DRUG. I WOULD NEVER EVER DO COCAINE. And we're like WHAT a little cocaine never hurt anyone, and then Je's reaction was to hit Bej in the manparts with the broomstick out of desperation.

That was funny.

It's raining in love

I don't know what it is,
but I distrust myself
when I start to like a girl
a lot.

It makes me nervous.
I don't say the right things
or perhaps I start
to examine,
evaluate,
compute
what I am saying.

If I say, "Do you think it's going to rain?"
and she says, "I don't know,"
I start thinking : Does she really like me?

In other words
I get a little creepy.

A friend of mine once said,
"It's twenty times better to be friends
with someone
than it is to be in love with them."

I think he's right and besides,
it's raining somewhere, programming flowers
and keeping snails happy.
That's all taken care of.

BUT

if a girl likes me a lot
and starts getting real nervous
and suddenly begins asking me funny questions
and looks sad if I give the wrong answers
and she says things like,
"Do you think it's going to rain?"
and I say, "It beats me,"
and she says, "Oh,"
and looks a little sad
at the clear blue California sky,
I think : Thank God, it's you, baby, this time
instead of me.

I'm underwater! Fall Out Boy!

I just took of my shirt and smelled the shoulder area of it and it smelled EXACTLY like the aquarium.

Not that it smelled like fish. That would be disconcerting. But the non fish areas of the aquarium, the sort of sweet mysterious dark smell it has when it isn't smelling of fish, like by the areas where all the fish are behind smell proof glass. And it's just dark and comfortable.

Earlier today I was trying to get a picture of Alvin the underwater explorer transportation machine, so I google image searched for Alvin and all that came up was pictures of Alvin and the Chipmunks.
I am too nerdy for the internet sometimes.

And why was I trying to get a picture of Alvin? Why, for Bej's adventure pictures of course!
Here are the ones made by me:




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And here are the ones Ad made:


Today Meg said I have a beautiful singing voice. Which is just NOT true. Now there's a compliment I've never gotten before.
Don't let this make you think I have a beautiful singing voice. I mean, you've heard it. And beautiful it is not.

Mel and Il/El/Al (I NEED to learn how to spell his name) hooked up until 4:30 am last night. And will PROBABLY be an official item in not so long.

Today I woke up and started writing my self evaluation. And then Be knocked on my door and opened my window and showed me the snowy wonderland outside, because there WAS a snowy wonderland outside, and he knew that I probably wouldn't have looked outside yet, and it was GORGEOUS. So I went outside and there was everyone running around, playing in the snow, throwing snow balls, etc, and then we all went out to the field and frolicked about for a while. And then Be was going to go back because he was cold, but then he hit me in the head with a snowball from like...a bunch of yards away, so I took off after him at a run, and he ended up running into this woodsy area and I followed, and we were running over roots and he was hiding behind trees and I was tracking him down, and then he went back to the dorm and I still hadn't caught him yet and he locked me out of the dorm for a bit because he knew I didn't have keys, and then he finally let me in and ran up to Sa's room and hid in the corner. And then I got him with the snow I had stuffed in my pockets.

And then I needed a nap. Because it was an epic snow battle.

SO LET THE LOVE TEAR US APART I'VE FOUND THE CURE FOR A BROKEN HEART! LET IT TEAR US APART!

Ummmm
New Hampshire is totally going down this weekend. I'm just sayin.

All kinds of cataleptics

Tonight was a wonderful relaxing peaceful night.

It was the first snow in this neck of the woods, and even though it didn't stick or anything there was campus wide jubilation, everyone running out of the dorms and sticking their heads out the windows, and we were running around catching snowflakes on our tongues and it was great.

I want lots and lots of snow when I get home. Wait, I'm totally going home in a few days. Weird.

I woke up today and cleaned my entire room. And then I walked up to Mel's room and found her still in bed (at like four) and hopped into bed with her and then Meg came in and got in bed with us too and then Be came in and got in on top of all of us, and it was a cozy start to a cozy day.

Everyone painted their faces with my paints tonight, not the oil paints cause that would be a terrible idea but the other kind, and it looked all kinds of neat.

I spent most of my waking hours just being peaceful in Sa's room with mah boyz.

No really though, I'm a little obsessed with my boys. I think they're fantastic. I think it's funny that I've gone from one guy, so many girls to one girl, so many guys.

Boob girl took her top off in the window again and Je and Bej started writing a song about it and if she knew the fame she has in the dorm.

Emm and Jos and Be and Sa and I went for a middle of the night walk to the top of the library and had a tiny snowball fight because there was only enough snow for tiny snowballs. And then we came back to my room for hot chocolate.

OH. And Jos started playing and singing Horse Named Bill on his guitar in Sa's room.

NOBODY

knows that song. I have not heard ANYONE sing it ever besides Father. So that was exciting.


It was just
so peaceful all day.

I'll be looking at the moon but I'll be seeing you

It's been so long since summer. I find that very odd.

Today I was woken up by Be and Ke banging on my door. They said it was time for me to wake up since it was three pm. So with a goodmorning hug I was awake.

And then Be wanted to go on a walk, so he called Jos and me and Be and Jos went into Oly to get some burritos and go to the sketch shop and the music shop. If I still played the flute I could totally buy that thing of Beach Boys songs and play Beach Boys songs on my flute. I still have half a burrito in my fridge. Hellz yes.

And then let's see we got back and hung out in Sa's room for a while. And then Av and Ge and Pi made some brownies and gave them to everyone who wanted some.
We wanted some.

And then we went to the Hip Hop Congress Bat Mitzvah and they had a beautiful bonfire going and they had some live music and they had some dancing.

And then Be and Je and I came home and hung out in Sa's room with Jos. And man were those brownies ever chocolatey. Or whatever. Goodness. Oh! On the way home Be was talking to the raccoons I am not even exaggerating. And Je screamed in the elevator.

I've just had such a good succession of songs play. First was It Ain't Me Babe and then Mr. Sandman and now Sexual Healing.

And then we had more time in Sa's room. Meg and Mel and No were in there for a bit too.

And then there was AMAZING Irish song singing and guitar. OH MY GOODNESS.

What is with my nose and people wanting to pet it and touch it?

My life. My life.

You have no idea

how jealous I am of this entire situation

I'm just sayin

So
my days
are wonderful. I feel like there was something earlir I was going to write. Ohyes. I remember what it was. it was that everyone here is freaiking out about driving in a little bit of snow, and I say they should havbe seen those conditions me and A drove in that one time when we both drive one in front of the other and we were shouting at each other through car windows. And I believe that ws almost (I just wrote able inteafd of alomost for no good reason) I believe that it was almost this time last year.

It's 5:01 am.
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What happened tonight? We were in Sa's converted nook. And then we were at Emm's mod. And then we were in the common room. And then we were in my room. And then we were in Ad and Pi's room. And then we were in Sa's room. And then we were in Bej's room.

THE END. I wrote so many things before I got to THE END. It's too late at night.

I think people are finally giving me the classic response. Because know how many people have told me they love me recently? SO many.

Vi gave us all light sticks I mean glow sticks that go around the neck. Or arm.

GOODNIGHT! I WISH YOU ALL WERE AWAKE AND ONLINE AT 8 AM ON A FRIDAY EASTERN TIME.

And you're the only doll I've ever wanted to share it with me

Tonight I'm scared by the passage of time. It's already December 11th. This term is already over. I'm scared that someday this year will be over. I remember back in the summer when I was all upset about how late school got out, but now I totally wish it went longer. I don't want this year to ever end. And yet it will. Since time does that.

Tonight Ke and I celebrated the end of our workload like classy ladies from the 70's. Ke tried to seduce me with her "my roommate won't be back till three am" and her mood music and mood lighting and platter of ritz crackers and cream cheese and little umbrellas on the straws.
It worked.

And then Be came looking for me and joined in, and then Sa came looking and joined too, and then Emm showed up as well, and then we moved the party to Pi and Ad's room with a bunch of other people around.

I don't think I can even say more.

I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES!
SINCE YOU CAME ALONG!
YOU SEXY THING!
SEXY THING YOU!

My time of day

I'm totally going to sleep early tonight. It's 2:30 and I'm in bed and everything! Who's proud of me? I am!

Ok last night first. So let's see. Sa and Be and myself were playing Bother Bej, sliding stuff under his door and such, and then he came out of his room and got in a bit of a tussle with us, and so we made him (with Ia (Io is a pretty sweet moon)cause he showed up too) some giant love notes out of Ta's giant paper and slid those under his door, but he slid back hate notes, so then we somehow ended up going to Sa's room and putting a peanut butter sandwich in a paper bag and dangling it outside Sa's window so that it was outside Bej's window, except Bej didn't see it so we went outside and tried throwing rocks at the window, but whenever we heard voices (which was only once cause it was god knows when o clock) we ran and hid, Sa behind a dumpster, Ia behind a tree, and Be under the stairs with me, and then we kept on doing that until Be was like THIS IS A BAD IDEA and then we all RAN up the stairs to the fourth floor door, and then the door was jammed so we ran up to the fifth floor door, and it was just so dumb and so funny. And then Be tried calling Bej, and Bej didn't believe there was a bag outside so he went outside to see, and we could totally see him next to that dorm across from us and so Be sent Ia to go confront Bej, and then Bej locked Be out of their suite, and would only open the door if he could see Be and Ia and me outside of that dorm across from us, but he forgot about Sa so Sa was able to jump into the suite....

It was great. And so something that would only happen in the middle of the night.

MYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY TIME OF DAY IS THE DARK TIME!

It's really very true here. My sleeping schedule, I swears. Like my last sleeps were from 4 am-8 am, then class from 9am - 1 pm, and then nap from 2 pm - 6 pm. That isn't normal. Yet it's my schedule.

Stuff went DOWN tonight.
All and Av hooked up...a LOT. In many different places. Until Av threw up everywhere.
Wa and Sar had sex in the common room bathroom (Funny story: the common room bathroom is supposed to be locked, but To found that you could kick in this board in the door and shimmy through, for some reason there is a square hole cut in the bathroom door which has been boarded up, but the board can be pushed out and then stuck back up by pushing the nails into the holes, so it's been this running dorm joke where Vi the RA gets mad that the bathroom is unlocked and locks it and then people push in the board and unlock it again and she has no idea how we keep on unlocking it, cause it's not a real working bathroom it's supposed to be storage space, so here's the story, is yesterday I was sitting in front of it working on my storybox with Ke, and Jac and Ge were there too, and then Vi walks in and we're talking and I guess I leaned up on the board so it fell over with a resounding crash, and we're just all silent cause she isn't supposed to know about how the board falls in, but I manage to block it with my back and she's like what WAS that noise? and we're like hmm we have NO idea. and she totally didn't figure it out. what was i saying before I went off on this tangent? OH i remember) and locked the outside door to the common room, but Vi then unlocked the common room cause she was angry and Je ran in and pushed in the board, interrupting the common room bathroom sex.
Pi threw up all over his room so Ad is sleeping in the common room tonight.
Bej was wearing his sunglasses and singing songs he was making up about everything all night.
Meg was a mess.
Oh goodness. Stuff went down tonight.

Woof

Peanut butter and jelly sandwich

I wish I slept ever.

But tonight was epic.

Butter wrapped in bacon wrapped in a waffle

I figured I shouldn't go to sleep sad. And even though it's 4:30 am I'm happy I stayed uyp, because I had so much fun with Je and Bej and Be and Ale. Be and I had rustic club, and then I was going to go to sleep but I heard weird sounds from upstairs and I found Bej and Ale recording themselves talking about food and playing it back in slow speed, and then I joined in and it was a hoot and a half let me tell you. And then Be came in and he and Bej started this thing which I don't think I can even explain, and Bej was playing the guitar and garage band recorded it all. It was them being like

Bej: Be, if you were trapped in an ice block, and you were still alive, or even if you were dead, I'd get an ice pick and chip away that ice, because that's how much you mean to me.
Be: Thank you Bej. You know, if you were in the center of the earth, trapped in a block of magma, in a bubble, I would harness a pterodactyl and fly to the nearest volcano, and freeze that magma, just to save you.
Bej: Wow, so Be, if you were at the bottom of the ocean...

And it went on for six minutes.
So.
Good.

And then Je came in and was making these faces and Bej recorded the whole thing without us being aware, Je and I exist on the same mental plane I swear, we just GET each other, it's a great sort of phenomenon, so he was making faces and I was laughing and it ended with Je acting out Bej tapping me and crisco at the same time. With sound effects.

I don't get enough sleep in college.

I was sad today. And yesterday too, actually. And the day before that. I'm not really sure why, as I have no outward reason to be. Yet sad I was. I've been doing fun stuff and everything is great as always, only I've had this constant underlying sadness going on. Which is probably why I was back in my room ready for bed at midnight. Ah well. Hopefully I'll be back to normal tomorrow.

The highlight of today was drawing in the second floor common room fort. When we (Mel, Ke, Ka) went down with our music and markers and such we didn't expect it to turn into such a party, but then Ad and Wa and Bej and Je and Be and Sa and Meg and No all showed up, and we were all drawing on the walls and floors and ceiling of the fort, and it was awesome. The people here, I'm telling you. My kind of people.

Tonight at dinner there was this girl sitting at the end of the table crying, so we were like are you okay and she told us (Ge and me) about her boy problems and how she was lonely and a mess, and Ge and I talked to her for a while and she told me how much better she felt after talking to me, and I was happy to be able to help her out. And then she came back to our dorm and we welcomed her into our ourdorm family. There are a lot of family members who aren't actually from our dorm. I just realized that I've been making no distinction in names between Em from the mods and Em from the 4th floor. Hm. Oh no I remember, Em from the 4th floor is supposed to be written Emi, but I don't think I adhere to that often.

Ge also had egg nog and chocolate covered raspberry pecans. And we were sharing around pecans and a glass of egg nog (this is why we're all sick all the time, this food sharing. I really should be more afraid of herpes) and it was DELICIOUS.

I should draw a friend map of everyone and their interconnectedness and who they're closest with and such. But that would be too much effort for right now.

I'm going to clean my room so good tomorrow.

I don't think there are words to describe the way I feel about this

!!!

Na na na na na na na na water bottle, hotdog, batman

After hearing Ad and Ge talk about Boulder I totally want to live in Boulder when I grow up. Who's with me?

Tonight Mel and Be and Sa and Ad took a nap together. I love group naps.

Somebody built a HUGE fort in the second floor common room, and I went in it with Mel and Ad and Ia and Wa, and it's GREAT.

Vi came home Petered tonight. Talk about scandal!

Spirited Away is a GOOD movie.

Babies!

I'm probably a little too excited to grow up and have babies.
BUT LOOK AT THAT BABY.

Mycollege

Sometimes things at my college are SO Mycollege it's ridiculous. Today in Ad and Pi's room there was a lava lamp on the wardrobe, a ukulele/guitar/drums singing session on the floor, kids in a hammock, a guy getting his hair turned into dreads on the bed, christmas lights and fabric and stuff on the walls everywhere, cheese, it was just SO Mycollege. Genius.

I had the best salad EVER today. Oh. My goodness. Spinach leaves, goat cheese, walnuts, pear slices, and vinaigrette. SO. GOOD. SO GOOD!

The kind of hope that flies on silent wings

I need to write this really fast. Cause I shouldn't be up this late. Je and I have a pact, only he went to bed at a decenter (but still not decent) hour. Yet here I am. So let's cut to the chase cause this is only making time progress further into the future which is where I musn't be right now.

THERE WERE OWLS!
In the woods tonight. Loud owls. At first Be was all no those are probably some kids and I thought they were kids too at first but there were two owls over our heads in the trees calling to each other as we stood next to the log there. OWLS. FREAKIN OWLS. And the hooting was so loud and resonating and they were close to us. Now that. was cool.

But going back in time. Today was lovely. After symposium I completed two of my essays so now I only have two more to write. And then we sat in a very cozy corner of the common room before dinner. And then we went to dinner at the mall, me, Mel, Meg, Em, Ka, Be, Bej, Sa, Ad, and No. Five girls and five boys so it's even. (I just highlighted and deleted the entire text of this post by mistake but luckily I was able to do edit undo. would have taken too much time to rewrite and I don't know if I would have done it right). Anyway what was I saying? Oh yes we played king of the hill on the way back and it was FUN and intense.

And then we had a lovely time in the common room and Mel and Emi and Ka and...other people too sang songs from the Sound of Music (WHICH HAD I OR HAD I NOT BEEN TALKING ABOUT LAST NIGHT) and played Ring of Fire for me because they love it so and Ad and I drew opposite pictures, I drew Antarctica and penguins and he drew fire and pheonixes, but we planned it so we had everything in corresponding places, so it's neat. Meg hurt her ankle again. Poor accident prone child.

And THEN Ad and Wa hung a hammock in Ad and Pi's room which is awesome. And then there were some good times had by all in that room let me tell you. LET me tell you. This polaroid of Be and I was taken and oh goodness, I will try to find it and share it tomorrow but let's just say a picture speaks a thousand words. It's HILARIOUS. Our faces. Oh dear. OH dear.

So it was me, Wa, Ad, Ne, Ia, Je, All, Be, Sa, Pi, Av, Ge, Ta, andddd I think that's all. And GOODNESS. FUN. FUN FUN FUN! Je rapped. Pi was NOT a human. Ta poked Be in the eye. Be and I were seeing blue and green skittles (after the skittles RAINED FROM THE SKY) except Sa was all no there's no such a thing as a blue skittle. But we SAW them. And I was only able to take tiny bites of my oreo, so I turned it into a food chain and then All and I completed the food chain. And Be's words were falling off the paper. And Ad was in his hammock.

And then we went to Sa's room (Be and Sa and I) and I think we weirded out To a lot because we had been trying to get Bej to lie on the floor because the floor was like the universe (All blessed Sa's baby jesus (wasn't a real baby jesus)) except he was afraid to so we were trying to show him it was safe by lying on it ourselves and so when To came in were were all LIE ON THE FLOOR TO LIE ON THE FLOOR TO THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH IT IT'S NOT A TRAP, and then Bej was like if I wasn't here you would have killed him by now, and then To got scared and left. And we were just one big blue laughing mess.

And then we went to Ta's room and played apples to apples and hilarity ensued.

HONESTLY GUYS. HOW GREAT IS EVERYTHING. SO GREAT.

Story Box

Goodness.

I LOVE. This. My dorm. My friends my people. GOODNESS! I LOVE IT! MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. How did I get so lucky? How DID I get so lucky? How is this my life and how are these people my friends and whatever did I do to get this as my reality? I feel like Captain von Trapp and Maria singing to each other in a moonlit gazebo, only instead of the Captain and Maria it's me and my current freshman year experience, clinging to each other in wonderment and awe and a pretty blue dress. I've only been here a little over 24 hours, and already they've been nothing short of spectacular.

Last night the rustic club met for a while in our spot at the picnic tables, and just being home and smelling the smells and having all my people around me all the time was so comforting. And then today I had my final at nine, and then between our final and our guest speakers Ke and went dumpster diving for cardboard boxes for the story boxes(Ke was literally INSIDE a dumpster) and then we had our speakers and thennn let's see I soaked up the wondrous weather here (SO much warmer than home) and finished The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter and then Be and Sa and Mel and I played with Be's little penis. gun. And Be's big penis. gun. And then Ke and I and Peter got ready for working on our story box, but instead of doing the story box we instead...goodness we did so much. We went looking for sticks and pebbles with Pi, we visited Ge in his room, we hung out in my room with Sa and Mi and Ge and lord knows who else, Ke and I ended up doing a bit too much exploring, we hung out in the second floor common room with Ia and Ba and a kid I just met, and then when we were about to get to work Be came in and invited me to the woods, so I smacked that up, and then Ke and Ad and I finger painted on cardboard boxes for the story box and then Je and I played the he draws a scribble and I elaborate on it game and I talked with Be and Bej and Je in the common room for quite some time.

Other things may have gone down too.

I LOVE
I LOVE!
I LOVE.
MY LIFE.

IT'S DECEMBER?!?!?!?

WHAT.
I started this blog in summer.
Now that IT IS DECEMBER (which I still don't believe) it is officially not summer.
I don't even believe those words as I write them.

What.
Where. Has the time gone. If all of college goes this fast, the four years will be over before I know it.

MERRY DECEMBER EVERYBODY!

Wanderlust

is a real word.

When you're! Holding me!

This was a beautiful beautiful weekend. We were all together again and it was like no time had passed, just as much love and comfort and fun as ever. I knew we would all stay in touch and all back in the summer, but after feeling what three or so months apart is like, which in case you didn't notice was like no time had passed at all save for a few college stories, I just KNOW we'll always have what we have. We've made something special, and when we're all old and beautifully wrinkled we'll still have each other. I know it! And I'm always right about these things.

Narwhals on Acid

Umm
Can we just go over how Tertia, Karen Cheng, and Dooce are all pregnant? Who's next? Tracie? Margalit?

Today was actually pretty uneventful. No orgies. And I'm going to sleep early! As in three am, but that's early these days.

Sa and Mel and I are going to make a website, and it's going to make a lot of money. Just you wait.

I am a knitting fiend these days, churning out about one hat every one and a half days.

I'll be home soon. WEIRD.

Rilla-my-Rilla

WAIT

DO MY EYES DECEIVE ME

OR IS THIS WEBSITE REALLY WHAT I THINK IT IS

http://www.classicreader.com/browse/1/title/#alphaQ

THEY HAVE ALL THE ANNE OF GREEN GABLES BOOKS. AND ALL THE LOUISA MAY ALCOTT BOOKS. AND AKLDFJHKL SO MANY BOOKS!

I was IN LOVE with Walter from the Anne of Green Gables books back in third grade or so. Talk about dream man.

Half moon

I don't sleep nearly enough in college. I would go to bed without blogging since I have symposium tomorrow and all, but there are two things that cannot go unblogged. And they both happened after one am.

1) So we're sitting in the Captain's room, Mel, Captain, and I, and Mel and I are on his bed and Sa is in his chair and we're watching this boy do some weird thrusting thing in this girl's room, but the wardrobe and bed are obstructing most of the action, so we're wondering if he is getting his pretty on with some girl on top of her desk, when Mel points to a window two windows below it and says, "Wait that girl is about to take her top off," and this girl is standing up in front of four or so people who are sitting on the bed, and we're doubtful but Mel insists that the girl is nervous and her body language is pointing towards strip, and then I kid you not the girl takes her top off, Mel's got those instincts, and then we're all excited because nights just get so much better when you get to see breasts in the windows of that dorm, AND THEN I KID YOU NOT the REST of the people in the room take THEIR clothes off and HAVE AN ORGY. There were limbs EVERYWHERE, people making out left and right and all over each other, and then they turned off the lights and lowered the blinds. AND SA AND MEL AND I SAW IT ALL. And then I ran downstairs and told everyone else, but by the time they all came up the action had died down.

2) Be and I brought back the knitting and pipe smoking club tonight and ended up having a really deep and personal conversation about all kinds of deep and personal stuff, both telling each other things we'd never told anyone else. And it was beautiful. I've never really had a best platonic guy friend like that.

SO IN CONCLUSION
Half moons are my favorite (ALERT THE PRESSES! GIRL LIKES HALF MOONS! LITTLE KNOWN FACT! (SHUT UP A, I DON'T TALK ABOUT HALF MOONS TOO MUCH (OKAY I MIGHT TALK ABOUT THEM EVERY TIME IT'S A HALF MOON BUT WHATEVER I LIKE THEM))) and good things happen on half moon nights. And tonight's was utterly gorgeous and I had my glasses cause I had taken them out to watch the orgy.
Is it ever late.

Advertising

Last night at around midnight after a lovely Mycollege Monday Be and I decided to go into the woods, and we ended up splitting what was probably too much, and it was FUN. Be was drawing an advertisement for our dildo company, and Mel told him to make the woman more feminine, and his attempt at making her more feminine ended up making it look like she had a beard and football lines under her eyes. And then he was going to block out her face to make her every woman, but she ended up looking like she was wearing a space helmet, so we put her in space. And I drew a picture of seeing the wildebeest migration from a hot air balloon. Because I've been keeping my paper and markers and crayons and colored pencils in the common room and people have been coloring and coloring. And my lighter blew smoke rings when Be flicked the flame slightly on. And it was just a genius night.

SCABIES! BABIES!

I didn't blog yesterday because I ended up going to bed wildly late. I suppose it's wildly late now too. But if I don't blog now then when will I? AND BY GOD, LET THESE FEW NIGHTS NOT GO UNBLOGGED!

Yesterday we went out to dinner and then to Vi's improv show, and then we got stranded and had to walk miles upon miles (or so) to a bus stop that the nightline bus came to, and it was foggy and fun. Apparently Olympia is known for its fog. I like fog.

BIG EXCITING NEWS! NO AND MEG ARE OFFICIALLY A COUPLE! LET'S ALL TAKE A MOMENT TO AWWW.

I suppose posting about how much I love my dorm and friends and life is becoming repetitive. But we've concluded that the latest full moon brought with it some wondrous goodness. Good things are happening.

Tonight everyone sat in Mel and Em's room for a while, knitting and talking and Be rolled up Ta's hand in a yarn ball, and Ad was out of his mind, and it was great. And I cut all of Mel's hair off. And they had bananas and peanut butter at dinner. All good things.

Well dangit

is it ever late

Something in the deli aisle

Yesterday was a long and involved day.

It began at seven, since I had to be at C lot at 8:30 for my field trip to the sewage treatment plant and the dump. When Ms. Frizzle and the gang (complete with Amanda Jane, Carmen, and Florrie) went through the sewage treatment plant they must have really had magic on their side, because if I learned anything at that field trip it's that vats of raw sewage really are as unpleasant as one would imagine them to be. If not more. Ke and I concluded that our entire class is some sort of cross between The Simple Life and the Joe Schmo Show. All of our classmates are paid actors (seriously, you'd have to see our classmates to believe them. I see them every day and I still don't believe them) and field trips that involve thickened sludge and giant trash heaps (one of the girls in my class ran up onto the trash heap when we got out of the bus to look at it, and Teacher just stood there yelling WHAT ARE YOU DOING??? ARE YOU HIGH???) are just ploys by the producers to boost the ratings. And SURE maybe Wisconsin girl thought we were crazy when we were standing on the ledge above the dehydrated waste screaming I DON'T CARE IF YOU EDIT THIS OUT OF THE SHOW! WE'RE ON TO YOU! WE KNOW YOU'RE OUT THERE CAMERAMEN, but I mean she's an actor anyway so who cares what she thinks of us. Really. Why else would the entire class line up to stick their face in a bin of concentrated sewage to smell it? Paid. Actors.

Then after class instead of taking my customary nap till 5 I went to buy knitting supplies with Meg and Mel. And oh my goodness, I bought the most beautiful yarn the world has ever seen. I was swooning over it like nobody's business. I love color. Love it. And then All joined us for a knitting party when we got back and we all knitted until dinner.

On the way to dinner Mel and Meg and I were walking between Ad and Sa, and since they're 6'4 and 6'5 respectively Mel said they were the parenthesis and we were the words. I liked it. Everyone here is growing increasingly and increasingly obsessed with the Blow, and none of them knew it until I introduced it. Love it. Everyone sings it all the time.

After dinner we all went and saw this Tibetan Buddhist monk speak, and he was utterly phenomenal. I want to be his friend so bad. And what I talked about was so pure and real and inspiring. So great.

ANDDDDDDDD after the monk we bought more of Jo's apple cider and Meg and Mel and Ta and I retreated to Mel and Em's room, where we had cider and chips, and then everyone else came to their room, and good times were had by all. And then we set off for Em's mod and we bonded with everyone and I ended up wandering into two other mods where other revelries were going on (once with Em and once with Mel) and I ended up meeting a bunch of great people.

And THEN everyone went back to Av's dorm and more and more people showed up and we had the best dance party EVER. So much fun. Love my life.

After the dance party was broken up I sat in the hall for a long time with Ta and Meg and Sa and it was a nice end to a very long day.

We were supposed to all wake up at 6:30 to go to Seattle to protest proposition 8, but word on the street is nobody actually ended up awake when the time came.

Fun

Tonight
was so
much fun.
Oh my goodness.
I have to wake up in three hours.
Dangit.

Like an anadromous fish

I am flying back to the little tributary where I was spawned.

IN ONE WEEK

Kitty wants candy

Frank Gilbreth would not approve of how long it takes me to get ready at night. I retired to my bedroom at 12:07 (early, i know! i have a field trip to the waste treatment plant and the dump at 8:30 tomorrow, and if Dolly Parton doesn't sing to me about the joys of recycling I quit) and it's 1:04 am now and I just got into bed.

I don't think there's much to report about today, besides that I sleep all the time and I love my life.

That's a lie. Not the loving my life part, because I forking do, but the not having much to report part. I think I'm just lazy right now. I mean, not that I have much to report. Maybe I should just report it already instead of dilly dallying about with all this fluff.

SO.

We all went to see a disciple of Gandhi speak today, and she was really cool, but we could only understand what she was saying part of the time, since she was a very old woman with a very thick Indian accent, but when I wasn't able to understand her I was THINKING stuff like nobody has ever thought before.

And then...maybe I didn't have much to report. I just REALLY, really enjoy these people I'm around. And I am amazed at my life and my existence. I guess I say that too much. But it's only because I'm awestruck and I don't know what else to do about it besides shout it from the rooftops of the internet (coo, what a sight). Just hanging out in the common room, with Ad scooting around the floor screaming with swirly blocks in his eye sockets and me scratching Em's back as she and Vi draw with crayons on the floor and Jai gives Be a back massage with all the moaning and Meg also scooting about giggling and Ta pulling Mel around with the string from the hat she's knitting...it's really my life. I didn't make it up. Though sometimes I think I may have.

I feel like it's such a miracle that I'm alive right now. Read this article and see if you don't walk away from it with a bit of wonder pumping through your veins. What if we were right in the middle of a cosmic void? What if that's one more of the millions of variables that happened to come together to create life here, and not just life but US. And now here we are, thanks to so many coincidences coming together and ending up with me. And all of us. From way back to those stromatolites through all of evolution, how is it anything but miraculous?

WotLK

Today was great.

I went to symposium, which was all about Ashkenazim and involved this documentary and the documentary maker talking about it, and it was all up in my heritage.

And then after class I was really productie and did all kinds of homework. Which made me feel all productive.

And then I went up to the common room and it was all nice and cleaned from maintenance, and had the extra furniture Bej borrowed from the second floor common room, and I decided I really wanted to decorate it so I brought up my art supplies and started coloring, and then EVERYONE joined in and we had a spontaneous coloring and decorating party, and I mean EVERYONE. And Je brought flavor ice for us all, except in this neck of the woods they're called otter pops. And I cannot get over the beauty of my dorm community. We were all there coloring on the floor working together to beautify our common space. And it all started from me wanting to do a bit of coloring and decorating. I love it.

And then I played in Jai's bathroom for a bit, and then Kev danced for La and Jai and I, and then by the time I got back to the ranch Mel and Meg had bought some apple cider, and THEN the three of us ended up going to the mall to wait for the midnight release of WOW WotLK, and got free pizza and soda and gum and warheads. And it was hilarious. Because not every WOW geek had a harem of three girls with our state of mind. How jealuz are you right now A. I was in LINE for the MIDNIGHT RELEASE. And Meg and I had the best conversation about how wondrous our life is here at this school in this dorm in this reality in this community. This is our life. This is what we're going to look back on for the rest of our lives. We are just this group of kids, and we all chose to go to this college but we were just placed in this dorm, and together we have formed this beautiful community were everyone is comfortable with each other and everyone always hangs out doing nothing or going on adventures but mostly just enjoying each others company, and everyone is learning here every moment of every day, both in class and just about life in general and how to exist on our own and about interpersonal relationships and the way of the world, and learning from each others perspectives since everyone has had such different experiences that all led us to this dorm and this now. And here we are, all experiencing the madness that is college, all experiencing it together, and everyone is confused and everyone doesn't quite know what they're doing with their lives and everyone is missing their home and their friends and their lovers and everyone is starting this new college stage, but we're all in that same awkward and disorienting place TOGETHER, and our collective insanity only leads us to more learning. And we're only here for four years which is pretty short if you think about it, and freshman year is only one of them and it's happening right now. Right now! Everything I do is my college memories and everyone I meet are my college friends, and when I am an old woman I will look back at THIS time in my life that I am living right now. It's a little obscene how lucky I am to be in this moment and in this stage of my existence, and how much power I have to shape this time into something incredible, and how incredible it really is. Talk about these happy golden years. Wait man, this is SO like These Happy Golden Years, how Laura goes off in the world to teach school, and she's so far away from Ma and Pa and Mary and Carrie and little Grace, and she's a mess at first but she learns so much and grows, and she has Almanzo there to take care of her, which is love and friendship and community all in one. And it's just like that little song in the book says, "Golden years are passing by, these happy golden years." Even when I was little those lines always were so poignant and got me all nostalgic for everything, since it was the last "real" book in the series and all, and I knew that my childhood was passing by, and gosh it's going to be over soon, what am I going to DO when I'm not a child anymore? And when does a person really stop being a child? Golden years ARE passing by, THESE HAPPY GOLDEN YEARS.

Wait.
Dangit.
I should go to sleep already.

Substance-free Orgy

Today I slept. A lot. From two to five, and then from five to eight. It was weird. I was tired.

Be made me a dinosaur out of these lego block things and put it on my wardrobe. Talk about fantastic.


LeVar continues to live it up in college. I think Ha does all the LeVar decorating.


Ummm what else. We just sat in the hallway and talked all night, about sex and god and food and babies and more sex. LOVE the dorm community. Love it.

The rain that Teacher showed us how to predict this morning is now pitter-pattering all over my windows. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Henna

Ever since Bollywood night (ok which was yesterday but it feels like longer ago) my entire dorm has been obsessed with henna, due to the giant bag of henna made up for everyone's use. Everyone drawing henna on everyone else. Beautiful.

Tonight I took the bag, stood naked in front of the mirror and painted my entire torso with henna.

JUST KIDDING.

...or am I?

This

is one of the most obscure drawing requests I've ever gotten. Apparently Sa's brother needed it for a project?


Every time I start a story with THIS it is reminding me of Cherries and Cherry Pits, in which a girl starts all her stories with THIS, and that in turn is reminding me of Mother reading that book to me when I was little, along with A Chair for my Mother and The Cow That Fell in the Canal, and that makes me think of my own children and how when they're 18 and at college, maybe they will think of the stories I read to them when they were four.

Monday

My Mondays are always very productive. I love getting stuff done.

Aunt B came over for breakfast today. She's a raging hippie. I love it. It makes me feel even more like I belong at Mycollege. She read my astrology and showed me the chapel of sacred mirrors. There's just so much crazy in my family. It makes me feel like this is how I'm supposed to be. With my background and my genes, how could I have ended up anywhere but here, doing anything but what I'm doing?

Penelope

I'm kind of in love with the name Penelope. And kind of would so name my daughter it. Or maybe as a middle name?

Exit Skin

A visited this weekend. I think I showed her a good time.

Be has kind of moved in to my room. It's great. There are bottles everywhere from our dumpster diving excursions and power tools and epoxy and all kinds of things. Something of a workshop set up.

Vi and Mel and Meg and Em's suitemate has come down with scabies, and they are FLIPPING out about it. Ad was HILARIOUS last night though, chanting scabies, maybe you had to be there, but it was FUNNY. Ad is fantastic. Fact.

Mans. Last night was fun. All and I were watching the Pi Ad and Ta show, and Ad wrote in circles everyone can see everyone and then drew this thing that was either a girls face or a universe or an igloo, we kept on trying to figure out what, but we couldn't....it was a great night.

We went to the Reef on Friday night and everyone got stranded at the bus stop for an hour. But it was SO MUCH FUN. Meg was HILARIOUS as a homeless lady. And Ad and I would high five every five minutes. To mark the passage of time. I don't know. In our state of mind it worked. And Wa and Ne spitballed everything.

And um

My life is incredible, turkey party soon!

Guess what!

Two weeks until I fly back to the good old east coast!

Talk about weird.

Reunionization
will be
EPIC.

Love

I
LOVE
my life.

I was so happy I almost cried just out of how happy I was. Multiple times today. I cannot BELIEVE this is my reality. And that it is this good.

The people here amazing me over and over with how great they are. Over and over. Coloring in children's books, reading Shel Silverstein, returning from the woods to a bunch of people listening to didgeridoo, dancing, and twirling lights around, and just the community, I know I say it a lot but by god the community. Awe. Awe at my life. My entire life is dead-drop beautiful and I am in love with all of it.


Ta made me a narwhal without me even asking for one.

Mmmmm

I just awoke from the deepest most refreshing most beautiful sleep of my entire life, complete with rain sound and my blankets were the perfect temperature and loud people outside didn't phase me and MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I honestly swear I have never slept better.

That's a lie. I've had a better sleep. But this is second best. SECOND BEST I GIVE IT!

Not having school from wednesday-tuesday this week = GENIUZ. And Teacher still loves me at my conference and he's going to hook me up with working with that guy who taught that class that I thought was fantastic. So...sweet.

I love...everything really. Yesterday I was in the Captain's room with Be and Ad and Bej (and the Captain of course) and he had a new sound system so he started blasting the vengaboys and then Ne and Wa and Co run in and join in our dance party and we look down to the courtyard outside and everyone out there is raving too, and it was fantastic.

Mel was HILARIOUS last night. We learned how to use a shmapervizer from Za, and by god. That's all I have to say. And where can I get me one.

Ad is FANTASTIC. It is very unfortunate that he is leaving after this quarter, because he is fantastic.

Last night.

I KNEW stuff was going to go down. But I never would have predicted the INCREDIBILITY of the night. Dear freakin lord. I don't think anything could have made last night better. Utter jubilation. God. FANTASTIC. Mind-blowingly fantastic.

And that was HISTORY. That was the night I will have forever as the night Obama got elected and I celebrated in a house full of group hugs and individual hugs and joyous children and the hugs and the celebrating and my DORM with many a group hug there too and then going back to the dorms and then going back to the little house and then back to my room and then to the hall and then to my room again and the LOVE that was everywhere and all the people basking in it together and GOD I don't think I can express it.

Everyone was hugging and screaming NARWHALS for a while and that made me very happy and just generally awestruck at my life. MY LIFE.

Incredible.

Best. Night. Of my stinkin life.

Maybe not THAT great. But pretty darn great. Goodness.

Hey there little albatross

Stickshifts and Safety Belts is now my third most played song. And I only heard it for the first time today. Hm.
I love when that happens with songs, when you love one so bad nothing else will suffice and when you listen to it it's just so GOOD.

Mondays are always my productive days. Room cleaning, trash taking out, sweeping, etc. Starting off the new week.

I need to go to bed earlier. Dangit.

Election day is going to be epic. Stuff is going to go DOWN. I can tell you there that.

I love my dorm community. Love it.

Tonight I was sitting outside knitting a hat for Be while he was smoking his pipe, and it was just the two of us at midnight at the picnic tables under the tent with rain (the rainy season is officially upon us) and I don't know how I didn't die of rustic on the spot.

Av wants to make a band called Narwhal. I love that my room is above him because when he is practicing his music with his window open I can open my room and have free concert.

My dorm community. It's fantastic. We were all lying in the hallway outside the common room, and everyone was singing and Av was playing guitar and Vi was yelling at us half-heartedly because it was quiet hours, and mans I just love this dorm.

DIXVILLE NOTCH, NEW HAMPSHIRE! Remember that time we road tripped there?

I need! You here with me!

My dorm was discussing making a dorm porn movie last night, and I think maintenance must have overheard and taken it too literally, because 9 30 am there is loud pounding on the door and a deep male voice says "MAINTENANCE (pound pound pound) MAINTENANCE (pound pound pound) MAINTENANCE WE'RE COMING IN" and of course it's NINE FREAKIN THIRTY AM and I don't have class today so girl is all kinds of nekkid and in bed, and it was a bit rattling.

NARWHALS?!?

NARWHALS?????????????
WHAT?!?!?!?!


Man. Today was fantastic. It's forking late, especially with the time change. I'm so tired I'm shaking. But today was fantastic.
I always forget that I'm all meek and mild and in my shell until I get comfortable in a new place. Until I get comfortable. I'm comfortable now. And it's GREAT.

Mel and I have the best elevator parties. Sa thinks we're crazy just because we both used to be mermaids. And because we kept on running around asking everyone about narwhals. Ta pretended to be one. And GOODNESS I CAN'T EVEN STAND HOW MUCH I LOVE MY LIFE. MY DORM IS FORKING AWESOME. I love that this is my freshman year of college. This IS my freshman year. This is what I will look back on as my college days. And what days they are. WHAT DAYS THEY ARE!

I had to do my midterm essay today but I had many a distraction. But happy distractions. Mel and M and Be and MY LIFE.
I LOVE IT.

I spent the majority of the daylight hours decorating the suite with Ra and Al. We decorated it with colorful tape and made stuff like whales and hot air balloons and little creatures. It looks fantastic. I'm so happy. I'm...so happy. I really am. I'm about to cry over how happy I am. That could just be because it's late. But man. My life. I love it. I don't think I can express it. I'm in love with my dorm and everything around me. I am. I am!

ASKJl

TODAY HAS JUST BEEN
SUCH A GOOD DAY
I LOVE MY LIFE

Narwhals Rock

Dude. Narwhals are just freakin cool. That is all.

Oh. One more thing to say. I'VE TOTES FOUND MY OTHER. Mel and I are all kinds of in love. She's great.

The Heron and Rosanna

"Teach me how to cycle
And I'll teach you how to glide,"
Said the heron to Rosanna
By the sunny waterside.

Impossible, impossible,
But wait, look over there:
The heron on the saddle
And Rosanna in the air.


In other news, Halloween was a WEIRD night, filled with interpersonal stories, emergencies, happenings, and all KINDS of things. Stories better told not in blog form.

^_^

I am having an incredible day. And it's only noon. And all I've done is wake up after three and a half hours of sleep and go to class. But MANS is there ever a twinkle in my eye and a spring in my step. And for no real reason either. I guess it was just a really good class. And it's just a really good day.

WOO!

Too late

I go to bed too late in college. And I have to wake up too early. Dangit.

Princess Kay of the Milky Way

IT JUST GETS BETTER AND BETTER THE MORE I READ.

Eudimorphodon

Nothing went wrong today. A lot of things went right, actually. Co and I had our grievance party and everyone came, and it was great and delicious. I finished knitting a hat because everyone was knitting and gave it to Li. Jai gave me a fantastic massage. And Jai and I napped in Sa's bed for about two hours, and Sa and Be were in and out of the room and we didn't wake up. Be said we looked like puppies. I was going to start my midterm, but then Be came and got me for Who's Line is it Anyway watching. And yesterday I went through an entire dinosaur encyclopedia with Jo, and had a great elevator party with Mel. Yet there's been a certain discontent plaguing me these past few days and I haven't been able to shake it. Bej was really good about trying to cheer me up though. He let me draw on his window and we went on a barefoot road egging run with rotten eggs at two thirty am. Speaking of which, I'm not getting enough sleep here, and it's kind of an issue. It's hard to stay awake in class. But so much is happening late into the night I don't want to miss the social aspect.

I hope my tranquility is soon restored. I'll guess we'll have to see.

Power Animals

Today was a very mycollege day. I went to class, I painted, I read a bit of Revenge of the Lawn, I drew on Em and Mel's windows, I listened to Be and To do guitar/ukulele singing duets of Irish songs, Em led us in find your power animal meditation, we shared about our music, it was great. I'm becoming really close with Mel and Em. And that's great too. Cause they're great. And they think I'm great.

We're going to an 8 am dance party before class tomorrow. Should be interesting.

Dead drop beautiful

WAIT REALLY GUYS, I'M DYING OF THE BEAUTY OVER HERE. GOOD LORD WOMEN.

In other news I got attacked by a raccoon tonight. There was one on the skywalk when Be and I were walking home and as it ran by it GRAZED MY LEG. I think Be must think I'm half crazed because he always seems to witness me flip out over little things like rabid raccoon attacks. Oh well.

SISTER. DON'T READ THIS NEXT PART. THAT WOULD JUST BE AWKWARD. TRUST ME.


Ok. So the subject of dildos came up during a hall party today, and some anonymous girl was like I don't see the appeal of dildos, which is totes reasonable, but then she went on to say that she doesn't understand the appeal of masturbation and has never tried it. In her life. At age eighteen. And sure plenty of people are sheltered and all, but I know this girl is no blushing virgin. So she's had sex and plenty of it. But not masturbated. And doesn't understand the appeal.

...

I DON'T GET IT. I really just don't. It boggles my mind a bit. First of all. The appeal. IS THAT NOT. A REALLY OBVIOUS ANSWER. And not even ever having TRIED? Just out of curiosity? Or something? And she's had sex? So I'm assuming she's aware of this whole orgasm phenomenon? And I swear there's just something unliberated about needing a man (or partner I suppose) in order to have one.

I would have said something like BY GOD WOMAN, TRY IT ALREADY. But it was a very populated hall party. And that could have been awkward. GOOD THING THIS POST WASN'T. NO AWKWARD HERE, NOPE.

WE'RE SO PRETTY

Panda Express

Gentle Moans

Bej Survives the Desert

He likes Fall Out Boy, we make fun.

Closeup of me, Sa, and Be in the helicopter. Sa is the captain. Because he is always the captain.

I find

that I go to sleep all excited to see what the next day has to offer. That must be a good sign.

I want to show you guys the microsoft paint creation that Sa made (with Be and my input) of Bej dropped off by us in a helicopter in the desert. It is FANTASTIC. But it's on Sa's computer. Maybe tomorrow.

Ink Ball

TODAY I had class. And then after class I went to Safeway with Mel and got food for my dorm room because I have a minifridge now and can put food in it. This is very new and exciting, as I've only had instant oatmeal for breakfast for five weeks or so now. But now! I have instant cream of wheat! ARE YOU AS EXCITED AS I AM?!?!

I also have cheerios and honey bunches of oats. And milk! To pour on top! And cheese and crackers! And yogurt! And pepper jack cheese! THE NEW ERA OF FOOD, IT IS UPON US.

Speaking of food: yesterday we had baked potato bar and I thought of A.

Then after safeway Mel and I ate grapes and chips on the field and soaked in the warm sunshine. Whoever said Warshington (I LOVE people who call it Warshington) is nothing but a soggy foggy rainland lied. I feel as if I shall soon eat those words. But for now, let us revel in my ignorance. Har came by and joined our picnic for a bit with his bike.

Anddd thennnn I went up to Sa's room (because that's where I pretty much live these days, Sa and Be and I have become something of a trio) with Jai, but she soon left. I love Sa's room. DID YOU KNOW SA USED TO PLAY LODE RUNNER? In like 1995? When I played Lode Runner all the time and loved it? And not only did he used to play lode runner but he HAS IT WITH HIM IN COLLEGE, and we intend to beat all the multiplayer levels.

I love Sa's room because I can just wander in to it with The Voyages of Dr. Dolittle and read it in the nook and then fall asleep on the floor for a bit while Sa does his homework at the computer and Be reads on Sa's bed. It's all very comfortable.

I love that I've found people who like to have fun the way I do. Like today Be started playing ink ball not knowing what it was (and he'll continue playing it forever just because) (and of course I told him about A and ink ball) and then we started playing zen ink ball where we just let it go and eventually it finds its way into the holes...OK IT WAS REALLY FUNNY IN REAL LIFE, MAYBE IT JUST DOESN'T TRANSLATE IN STORY FORM. And Bej thought that every time you drew with ink you lost points, but that was just the seconds going down, and then he was all Be everytime I say anything you just look at [whoa, I just realized I have no code word for when other people say my name in this blog. so um my name goes here, CAUSE THIS BLOG IS SO TOP SECRET. I don't know why I bother with this half-hearted anonymous thing] and you guys laugh. Which is funny cause it's true. But you should hear the thing Bej says.

And we had a who's line is it anyway marathon which was great. Je and Mel and Meg came too and hung out with us for a while.

I'm really settling. The problem is though is as I settle into this group I end up not hanging out with the people I'd hang out with before. While I was searching for people I bounced around to many groups, and now they're all like WAIT WE DON'T SEE YOU EVER COME BACK and it's kind of awkward cause I like them too and all.

GOSH, I JUST HAVE TOO MANY FRIENDS. TOUGH LIFE!

Kidding. It really isn't like that. But like, it's still difficult.

Goodness

I'm still like reeling from the goodness of today. We spend most of our time in Sa's room (we being me Be and Sa, with Je and Bej and Mel and Meg and Jai coming in and out) just listening to music and muddling about on our computers. And it's great. This must be what being settled in college is.

THIS MUST BE WHAT BEING SETTLED IN COLLEGE IS!

I went slacklining (Slacklining is a balance sport which utilizes nylon webbing stretched tight between two anchor points. Slacklining is distinct from tightrope walking in that the line is not held rigidly taut; it is instead dynamic, stretching and bouncing like a long and narrow trampoline) with Jai and her friend Har and his friends today. It was great. I want to try it again and maybe get good at it. And Jai and I went in the woods (not "in the woods" just in the woods or as Jai tried to explain to Al "a voyage to look at trees") and took all those lovely photos pictured before.

And over dinner I figured out that No is from that town full of kids from our school next to my town back on the east coast. And we talked about what we wanted to name our kids and it was great.

I'd just like to point out that right now I have my itunes going down from most played to least played, and it's off shuffle so every song I'm playing right now is one of my MOST FAVORITE SONGS EVER. And it makes me happy every time a new song starts and I'm like WHOA this is a GREAT song to be playing now.

And then I went to Sa's room with Jai and I went in Sa's nook cause his room has the best little nook and I love nooks, and then I moved out of the nook when Be needed skype help, but the nook was great while it lasted.

And then we went outside for a while. And that was fun. And then we went inside again, and Be and I went to Sa's room again, and then we all went to Lis's apartment and had a LOT of fun, and then we came home and played the hand slappy game, and then we went to sleep and lived happily ever after.

I SHALL NEVER SLEEP CLOTHED AGAIN!

Dear lord

My life. It's great. I don't even know. It's great.

Woods

I LIVE HERE. I LIVE HERE!





This is the tree that I thought had a totem pole carved in it....it doesn't.


(you can click all those pictures and make them all big and beautiful and pretend you're me in the middle of the temperate rainforest)
(p.s. it's national capslock day, and as a frequent abuser of my capslock abilities, i figured if anyone should appreciate this holiday, it should be me)