Birthday Party

It is the morning of my 21st birthday party and I woke up early with butterflies in my stomach as if it was the morning of my 7th birthday party or something. This is no longer appropriate behavior.

Valentine's Day

is more depressing than ever this year. Valentine's day is not a love holiday. Valentine's day is a sweets holiday. And I cannot have sweets, no no no I cannot have sweets. Valentine's day sweets are all over the place, in the stores and on the internet and everyone is talking about them, and oh I cannot have sweets.

And I follow that rule.

i have

The MOST BEAUTIFUL toaster oven in ALLLLLLL of Olympia

I got it from the free store back in September and it was ugly as all get out, all dirty and stained and scribbled on, but then I got a seed catalog and decoupaged it up with pictures of vegetables and melons and now it is beautiful.

there was an old woman who lived in a shoe
she was sometimes so Olympia she didn't know what to do

We've gotten into this new thing, well its not so new by now because we've kind of been doing it for a while, but anyway the thing is watching documentaries or historical movies before bed (and after toothbrush party + playing with the new toy I got myself for my 21st birthday) and it is great. We finished Apocalypse Now last night, oh man that was intense.

I'm really excited about my mapping class. Making maps is super cool.

Dude. Free laptop. How cool is that. I've been telling everyone I know, which is a little obnoxious I know but I just can't believe it, that I would enter something and then get a knock on the door and a free laptop, especially since my old laptop is falling to bits.

Pretty cool, man.

We're house hunting right now, looking for a nice three bedroom place with garden space and a washer and dryer and a short walk to the bus.

I just got into cooking amaranth as of last night. I want to try popping it and see what happens. YumUniverse says popping amaranth is "one of the cutest kitchen activities one can participate in," so I say let's do it.

GUYS GUYS GUYS GUYS IT'S ALMOST MY BIRTHDAY

Snuggles and Sheep

It's weird how much the smell of baby sheep on my hands reminds me of last year. If I get sheep of my own someday I wonder if the baby sheep smell will remind me of college. It brought me right back to last year. It would be pretty cool to smell my hands and be like, whoa man, my college years. Plus I'd have sheep of our own. That'll be great.

Richard Brautigan knew

Beautiful, sobbing
high-geared fucking
and then to lie silently
like deer tracks in the
freshly-fallen snow beside
the one you love.
That's all.

What does the tomato say early in the morning?

It's time to wake up and be red again!

This is my new year

Hello everybody!

I miss you all so much. You guys, seriously you guys. Everyone who reads this blog post. You guys are the serious best. Such important people to me. You guys KNOW me and whenever we see each other it will be like always. Yeah. Everyone.

Ummm

I have a heck of a lot of work this quarter. I am doing it kind of. I don't want to work THAT hard, if I worked as hard as I could I would NEVER have time for fun. And I want fun ever.

So I don't work as hard as I could, but I work hard enough. Because I've got to have a good life, even the college bit, especially the college bit, but also all the time. But that's my goal, I'm going to have a good time with my life and I do. So much is good, I suppose it coulddd be better, but nothing like that is anything I really need. I am totally okay with how things are right now, and how cool is that?

I got this new silk 70's dress today at the free store, and it is super awesome. But I ripped it really bad tonight and then I made beer batter chicken and got the batter all over it. So like, I hope it isn't that ruined. We will see. I want to own this super cool 70's dress FOR FREE HECK YES.

I almost have a phone again, CALL ME CALL ME CALL ME CALL ME CALL ME!!!!!

But don't call me yet because I don't have a phone yet.

BUT CALL ME IN A LITTLE BIT!!!!!!

Oh, also I love my job. I hang out with babies all day, little baby babies, and I feed them and rock them to sleep and play with them and comfort me when they cry. Oh MAN, it is the best job EVER! Rocking babies to sleep is my favorite, oh man, there is nothing like it. I am so exited to be a MOTHER someday! I'm going to have CHILDREN! And they will be such important people to me but I don't even KNOW them yet because I HAVEN'T CREATED THEM!!

LIFE MAN!!

HOW CRAZY IS THAT!!

THE CRAZIEST!!

I made some bomb chili the other day.