another good night

Last night Benji and I tried to finish 2001 a space odyssey but I was getting too freaked out to watch it. We had just left off at the end of intermission when things were so intense and so scary and I tried to watch it but was too scared to even start, and then we tried watching intermission but the music was too scary so we had to turn it off. Then today we watched the second half and it wasn't what I was expecting at all, it was so weird and now I'm just weirded out by it.

Tonight was super fun though. Emily and I were making valentines in my room and then Jenny came in and said it was Mardi Gras night at one of the bars downtown so Benji and Emily and I all went and Jesse and Jenny were drunk there and it was great fun. It is so lovely to see Jenny and Jesse dance together. They're so great for each other and Emily and I just stood watching them and seeing how much they like each other. And both of them need to be with a person who can dance like that with them.

Today I was going crazy for sugar and I had none in the house, I was like looking through my room to see if there were any chocolate bars I hid left anywhere. I have this problem where I crave sugar all the time and can't stop eating it if I had it, so I try to not let myself buy sugar but KK keeps on SENDING me all this sugar which means I have a whole bunch of sugar at a time in my house which I can't handle. A while back she sent me a bunch of Stirs the Soul chocolate bars made with just cacao and raw honey since that's the only kind of chocolate I can eat since I can't eat vanilla or dates or agave or artificial sweeteners or pineapple concentrate or brown rice syrup or maple syrup or sugar or anything really and I had to hide them all over my house to keep myself from eating them all at once. I thought I'd run out a bit ago but then I found another one and then I had two desperate times where I searched through everything in my room and then eventually found a chocolate bar, which was the most exciting thing when I actually found them. Today though I didn't find any so I think they're really all gone, and I didn't have any honey because I don't let myself buy it because I eat it too fast, but then a package came for me since it's almost my birthday and inside were a whole lot of chocolate honey candies that I can eat and SIX JARS of honey. So what am I going to do now.

I think is really beautiful that every batch of honey tastes different. That is such a beautiful thing. I wonder if that only happens with raw honey or if it happens with all sorts? Back when I ate honey without caring if it was raw or not I wasn't a such a honey expert so I don't know. If anyone knows anything about this please let me know. HONEY HONEY HONEY HONEY HONEY HONEY Something else I've been thinking about: I'm really thankful for Asia because I know if I have a child with special needs she will help guide me so much that I know I'll be able to do a good job raising them. I'm so comforted knowing that she is there for me and would be able to help me so much. Also, Jesse and Jenny and Emily and Greg and Benji and Maggie and I all had an oobleck party tonight in Emily's room and it was so fantastic. Maggie said that the free store had a lot of cornstarch right now so we could make oobleck so I went and grabbed some of my crazy amount of corn starch and made oobleck and everyone loved it. Jesse had never played with oobleck before and he had the best reaction to it. I'm so happy I was there to see it. Then I was able to give Maggie the nutritional yeast that I have since I don't eat it anymore, and I know Benji still eats it sometimes but I will buy him more nutritional yeast if he wants it but I was just so happy to be able to give Maggie that gift. I want her to have my nutritional yeast. And really, I'm three stars sensitive to it. Then Maggie left and the rest of us all lay on the floor in Emily's room with our heads on each others stomachs and hung out and it was so great. Maybe it's because I know that I am leaving Olympia, but I have been feeling so strongly lately how much I appreciate these people and love having them in my life. It's so sad to me that this is soon to be over. But at the same time, I know that the friendships we've built here are so real and so deep that going to another city won't be the end of them. And who knows, maybe we will all make it to California someday. I mean, why not? We're all the type who would go to California and while our lives aren't the most flexible now, once we get enough job experience to be able to get a job in any city we can really go wherever we want. AND QUICK EVERYONE! BEFORE YOU SETTLE DOWN! I mean, if you want to. I'll post some pretty great pictures from tonight soon. Only wish we had some of the oobleck. OH I FORGOT THE MOST IMPORTANT PART! The most important part is that today I finished the first draft of my super huge paper and it ended up being FIFTY ONE pages and I finished it EARLY. It's due tomorrow at noon. I haven't handed it in yet because my webmail wasn't loading but maybe that's a good thing. Maybe I'll wake up tomorrow and edit it further, because I was definitely well aware it was a first draft as I was writing that last part so I totally could have done it better. But man that first part of my paper, and by first part I mean like the first twenty pages, is really really good. It probably isn't written super well, but the synthesizing of ideas and information I did in those first twenty pages is seriously impressive. Not to toot my own horn or anything.

Writing a paper writing a paper writing a 40 page paper writing a paper writing a paper writing a 40 page paper. It's cool though because I can really tell how much I've learned this year. Like, I know enough about stuff to write a 40 page paper about it. Which is good, because even if I didn't know stuff I would still have to write this paper and that would be rough. Lyme update: still get headaches. Can't eat any of the foods, no grains whatsoever, no sugar, no almond, green bean ,pinto bean, bran ,cashew, cheddar, cottage cheese, swiss cheese, coconut, coffee , egg whie, egg yolk, gluten, lemon, malt, cow milk, pinapple, brown rice, rye, safflower, sesame, black walnut, wheat, yeast bakers and brewers, yogurt, amaranth, red bean, red beet, casein, blue cheese, chickpea, cranberry, date, hazelnut, herring, licorice, mango, goat milk, oyster, pecan, pike, pistachio, radish, vanilla bean, whey, none of the foods. But I still get headaches. Besides that though life is pretty great. Emily's been gone this past week so the house has been lonelier without her, but still, it's great how much fun we all have with each other around here. Pretty nice stuff. Michelle is going to have her baby really soon. Babies! New plan: move to Berkeley. Live in Berkeley. How wild right! Leaving Olympia...I really didn't think it would happen this soon. Berkeley will be a heck of a lot more expensive, but also a NEW EXCITING ADVENTURE!